the worst part was that she cared.
she cared so deeply for them,
yet she was foolish enough inflict pain.
foolish enough to try and push away.
pushing away didn’t make things better.
it made things harder.
harder for her to deal with herself.
harder to sleep.
harder to cope with everything.
she became so afraid of losing sanity without them,
that they decided in themselves
to walk away.
she was so blind to all of the
that she lost it over being careless
with her time
with her actions
with her words.
something she preached so passionately,
she herself was unable to follow through with.
she made someone her collateral damage.
and that would forever eat her alive.